Hey, I know there's hope, too. Because this shows you care. You haven't given up and you don't like all the hate. You can get better, one step at a time. I believe in you, even though that probably doesn't mean much to you. But people have turned their lives around and they've climbed out of holes just as deep or even deeper than yours. So I know that you can do it. People have great potential in them, and that includes you. So don't give up. Push through this hard period and brighter times will come.
P.S. Don't worry about whether you're autistic or not. It's just a label, doesn't change who you are.
P.P.S. It's good to write out your thoughts. It helps with anxiety, and if this is where you'd most like to do it, go ahead!
PicayuneFarrago
I relate to a lot of your issues. i don't really feel like i belong in this world.
Lordcuckness
Well, I hope things get better for you too brother. Its nice atleast to know someone else feels the same